the sound of the dusk

Evenings are late, summer is approaching. No sense of haste, because the day naturally prolongs itself, time seems to elapse at a controllable pace. Life is in your hand. So when the dusk comes, it changes the palette of the sky - from solid to blurred and hazy. Then, it seems like looking out of the window is the only reasonable thing to do. This activity needs a special playlist.

Your Friend ‘Tame One’

Warren Zevon 'Steady Rain'

Dear Nora 'Girl From the Northern Country'

Junior Kimbrough 'Meet Me In the City'

The Space Lady 'Synthesize Me'

Tomasz Makowiecki 'Na Szlaku Nocnych Niedopałków'

what does it mean to overthink and has it ever done any good

Any day, any time, thoughts are our companions. Sometimes, we reach the point where we’d like to put our head aside, so the body can shyly exist and perform most basic of activites.

I came up with a definition. Overthinking - entering every little interaction offered, by the world, by people, by nature, by our heart. That is something I cannot simply repel out of inborn sensitivity. I know I’m not the one. Actually, as I observe people, their fragility astounds me. Many of them constantly debating, what to do and how to do it to avoid an avalanche of consequences. Overthinking seems to make our life secure because of all the insecurity. It also makes it incomplete.

Intuition is to be followed and I was taught to trust the instincts. Still, it takes a lot. Of self-acceptance, of trust, of familiarity with oneself. It’s not the question of age, it’s how much you want to learn. How much you want to walk through the world, watching people’s attitudes and their ways, drawing conclusions, readjusting your own schemes. Out of a sudden, to overthink means to think a lot and eventually, to make a decision. The one that leads further. The one that allows you to live to the fullest.